Friday, September 12, 2008
12 September 2008, Friday
YAY! Summer is finally here. Today we had such wonderful weather. The sun was shining, the air was warm, and the sky was blue - gee, I haven't seen that for a while... hmmm, maybe since the whole of winter! But now spring is here - even if only for two days. Apparently, it is going to be thunder storming tomorrow afternoon and the day after. As you can see, I'm not too desperately in love with winter.
The wonderful weather put me into a such a good mood today. Albeit, I was working since before the break of dawn and left work when the sky was a nice pitch black, but the sunny weather made my spirits soar even though I didn't have a chance to be in it. But suddenly everything did not look so bad anymore.
Sure, maybe I'll never have the time to do all the things I had once planned to do IF I ever got the time. I decided, that instead of waiting for things to slow down, waiting for there to be time, why don't I change instead and make the time? I'm being optimistic here, but I think it's worth the try. Why? Well, the truth is, I don't believe anything in my life will ever slow down enough for me. It is the complete opposite. Things keep on coming up, piling up, builds up so high that I feel suffocated. I spend all my time trying to do all these things that I never really find the time for myself. So now I will.
How? Well, who cares about sleep right? If I sleep a lot, I will still have to get up at that same time next day and work. If I don't sleep that much, I will still have to get up. So why not just cut out most of my sleep and do what I want to do in that time instead? At least now I will be doing what I want to do, even if I'll be a bit exhausted and all that. I think it's worth it. I simply believe that this is the only way I will ever be able to write. I truly don't believe that things will ever slow down long enough for me. Life just doesn't happen that way.
And... On top of everything else, I think I'm going to have to get another email address. I don't want to. But I think I have to. Apparently, it will be more professional if my name corresponded with my email address - which it does not at present. I'm still indecisive because... my current email address is my first and only email I've ever made and had so I don't want to get another one - that's just me being stubborn. I know I have to get another email - if I ever get to it.
Now... I'm going to go and write - hm, I feel sleepy.
