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Monday, July 14, 2008

14 July 2008, Monday

I've finally had to close this blog off to everyone. I seriously contemplated changing the URL as well as my name. I had my name changed to trissa but I could not get myself to change the URL just as yet. I don't know why, I guess I'm not so brave enough yet to want to have everyone ogling at my work. Apparently my sister caught a glimpse of some of my first pieces of works, I think it's good to have honest feedback and I would love to have her view my works - her being so good at English and all that, but I just can't brave it out yet.

Just last week I hit a depressive block in my writing. Everything I wrote sounded forced and it was simply not speaking to me. I just wanted to throw in the towel and cry. And cry. And cry. It's like you love art and you want to draw but you can't paint.

It was a misery. I ended up handing in those ten pages of misery to be critiqued by the fabulous Kathryn Caskie even though I knew it was all a load of crap and a complete waste of her fine expertise. I knew the moment I hit send that I should've sent in something else. Anything but those horrific pages. But of course, it was too late.

Somehow I've dug my way out of that self inflicting phase and tried to have some sort of reorganization occur so that now I feel much calmer and not so terrible. I'm going to start writing again. I should've never let myself slip the past few days and stopped my writing. It was a cowards way out. I should've faced the obstacles and tried to work my way around it, or at least try to work out what was wrong.

So now I've developed a kind of schedule to work on:
Sunday-Wednesday
From the time I wake up until noon, I will do all that cleaning stuff.
From noon until I fall asleep, I will spend that time concentrating solely on writing and eating junk *g* - I have to eat when I write, I can't help myself!

Every other day I have to work and I do not believe I will be able to write on Thursday-Saturday. Also, I will be working more starting next week so my writing time shall be cut down even more drastically! How am I ever going to get even one manuscript done??

P.S: I found that the plot was wrong. So the plot has once again changed =D

P.S.S: I've decided I will change my URL, no more prancing around the issue *sigh* And so I've reopened my blog again... for the time being. Let's see how that goes for now aye?

Farewell and Hello there!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

05 July 2008, Saturday

I've got a new blog look! Don't you just love it? I adore it. Its just gorgeous. Okay, So I'm gonna stop now before I totally lose it and go "ga ga" over it *g* Never ending thanks to our wonderful Zoe from Chic & Sassy Designs who took the time to design for me this template from my very blurry description of what I had imagined. She went beyond anything I could have ever dreamed of and I love her so much for this! {{{HUGS}}}

So now I have to say farewell to my Blossoms.










I guess it just wasn't the one for me *g*

I've at last got a day off work. I just got home from work and I'm reeling from exhaustion. My eyes can barely stay open cos I'm so sleepy, and my arms and legs are shaking cos I'm so damn tired - BUT - I have so much stuff I wanna do that I don't want to get any sleep.

My blog is everywhere since I'm still muddling through trying to find out how this blog works (yes yes, I am quite ignorant to the inner workings of the computer!). I still haven't got the time to officially start blogging yet - where does all my time go?!?! But I promise promise promise that I will really sit down and get everything started and straightened out by next week. Please, no more house cleaning, working, writing or emotional upheavals that will keep me away =D

Today I started reading Claiming The Courtesan by no other than the wonderful Australian writer Anna Campbell. Sometimes I hear people say that writing has made them not read books in the genre that they write in because reading makes them think that their writing is not up to par. To some extent that may hold true, but for me, I see it differently. Writing has changed the way I read, but not particularly in a bad way.

Now when I read books, I have found that I have a greater appreciation for the amount of time and research as well as the hard work that had been put into the book like I have never had before. In Claiming The Courtesan I have found the prose to be a work of art. The descriptions historically accurate and the characterizations amazing.

I can admit that before this, Claiming The Courtesan would not be the first book that I would've picked up based solely on its plot, but now I read books for a different reason; I read books due to my deep appreciation for the skill in which the writer has to write the book. I must say that Claiming The Courtesan has hit the mark in this department. It is a master piece with exquisite style that absolutely has my full attention when I read it.

I still love reading a book for its story, but now I would read a book solely because it is well written. It is the little details that I missed before which has captured my attention.